Let's start with the fact that I already posted and managed to delete it because I suck. I really don't like this new look of blogger, grrr! Maybe it's time for me to get web savvy and just start my own web page for this blog. Oh and my new one. I have a new blog. It's to help me frame out my idea for my series of movies or books or tv episodes that are all about my adventures in surviving being a bridesmaid. The good, bad, and the super ugly side of it all. I have seen it people, all of it. Weddings are scary sometimes.
Speaking of-my shotgun wedding is in full swing baby! Less than one month away-AHHHHHH!!!! So weird. It's feeling real now though because Joey and I are getting rings! Let me explain why this is a HUGE deal for us: we couldn't afford to even get me an engagement ring back in December, nor should we probably be getting these with my impending surgery coming up, but damn it-this gal wants him to put a ring on it! We are getting me a custom designed Claddagh wedding ring from Brilliant Earth, there will be a heart shaped diamond in the center as the heart (representing love) of the ring, a platinum band for the hands (representing friendship), and 3 blue sapphires in the platinum crown (representing loyalty), doesn't it sound like the bee's knees?! Joey wants this band for his ring. He's all nervous it will feel weird and that he'll fiddle with it a lot, which I think is adorable. We've booked the restaurant for our dinner after, I'm working on the photographers, we'll have the aforementioned rings, I have my dress, shoes, veil, Joe needs a suit still, we have the bouquet and boutonniere being shipped (hint it's not made of flowers!), and my folks are booking their flight to LA. It's shaping up pretty well here. And even though this is just our "paper work so I can have surgery" wedding and even though we're having the big to-do (complete with wedding gown, real vows exchanged, and a big rowdy brawl of a party), this feels real now. This feels like I'm about to marry the most amazing person. I am flipping excited people!
I am not excited though about how much all of this and my back bills are rapidly depleting my already very low bank account. I mean I live pay check to pay check here so this is putting a cramp on the $300 I had saved and the extra $500 limit bump I begged for on my Visa (Oh yeah my limit is now $3500!). Times are tough! It's all worth it though if this time next year I can dance around at my big to-do and really enjoy myself! :D
I just really want to be healthy NOW, not in a couple months but right flipping NOW. Can the surgery just be done and I be recovered already? I want to be able to walk normally (aka fast-I have long legs I want to use them), I want to be able to start swimming again, I want to work out and not have pain and really lose all the weight I was shooting for, I want to be able to lift a bag over 2 pounds and not need help. These are pretty basic things and I don't want to wait anymore. It's been seven years, I am ready now! This is where my impatience is really starting to make this impossible for me to chill out. I am trying to be patient, I really am but my brain keeps screaming now, Now, NOW. Don't get me wrong, I am scared as hell about this surgery. I will be sliced open from above my belly button in a diagonal to just above where my uterus is. My intestines have to be moved, major vascular things need to be moved, my discs have to be sliced out on 3 levels, 2 metal artificial discs need to be slipped in and the third area needs to be fused together with metal. Believe me I am scared; I still want it all done now. I want to skip through these next few to six moths to healthy and start living it up. I want to think about anything other than all this back crap. Blerg.
I know I am running on, just so much! Good and stressful. Oh and sad-I finished Buffy and almost done with Angel on Netflix. Now what?! What do I watch now? I am almost done with Cheers and Jem & the Holograms as well. I still have She-ra but what else?! I need suggestions. I have no cable so it's all Netflix & Hulu Plus & Project Free TV for me so what should I be watching whilst I am stuck in bed? HELP, I'm a TV addict and I need more TV! Haha. Or some great films would work too. I do love great films, especially Classic Film! So good.
And of course I am currently babysitting a film crew at one of my restaurant locations. And as an actor who has done extra work I just want to scream at these actors-SHUT UP. Stop arguing with your AD and me and please do what you're supposed to do; e.g. your job! be courteous, be quiet, be out of the way, go where directed, don't argue with your AD or site manager (ME), just do your job! PLEASE! I don't think it's that ridiculous to ask that. Apparently to some of these people we are asking the world. Get some priorities people, you get to play on a movie set all day watching some pretty famous folks do hilarious work on a funny movie set. Please be kind, courteous, and professional-NOT HARD. UGH, people can really frustrate the hell outta me.
Okay chickens, that it. Oh and about how I started another blog, it's not really for anything other than helping me to chronicle my adventures & misadventures in bridesmaiding and how I survived. I really want to turn them into a series of movies &/or books so I'm using that space to help me out with all that. If you want to help me out and ready it and leave comments it would be greatly appreciated-I will send you the address if you email me (email@example.com). YAY for writing. Plus it's supposed to be silly and funny but also a real how to on surviving some major b.s. that can be weddings. I'm super excited about it actually. I kinda hope it gets a lot of positive response because I think my idea on this would be AMAZING for movies &/or books. I think we need more funny women in the box office and on the bookshelves, I just hope I'm one of them and that I'm right about this idea. :)
Okay, that's a wrap for me for now! Peace out my chick-a-dees!