Sunday, March 22, 2009

1 2 3 4 tell me that you love me more...

so it has been a rough year, but I'm picking myself up and dusting myself off and starting it over again on April 1st. DEAL WITH THAT 2009! YOU CAN'T HA!

no we're having a party to celebrate the new new year that day. and i'm feeling better about life, despite being sick (AGAIN). it's all good. I AM GOING TO BE POSITIVE-even if it makes me sick to play the susie sunshine.

so basically, i'm being happy, i'm working a lot, i'm making not much money, i've been asked to be on LA INK, i'm trying to make a lot of money, i need a computer, i want a puppy, i'm sick, i'm going to class, i'm submitting for auditions. we'll see how it all goes...

hope all is well with y'all.take care.

Monday, March 2, 2009

Fuck you 2009

2009 can blow it out it's ass.
This year is full of shit already.
My mom called me in the middle of a script/bookstore and told me my brother lost his baby.
I feel like shit.
I can't call because I'm crying so hard and know they'll be crying which makes me cry harder about them losing this baby.
I feel like shit for being so shitty and concerned when I found out they were having a baby in the first place.
I don't care if everything happens for a reason, this reason blows a fat nut.
I hate 2009.
I hate crying so much this year.
I fucking hate it. so mad...and sad...and hurt...I just feel like total shit and don't know what to say or do or anything...
I am a horrible person.
I feel so awful for them, I love my brother and his gf so much. I was loving this little baby too. I had already started planning little things to buy and do and...
FUCK YOU 2009!