1 2 3 4 tell me that you love me more...

so it has been a rough year, but I'm picking myself up and dusting myself off and starting it over again on April 1st. DEAL WITH THAT 2009! YOU CAN'T HA!

no we're having a party to celebrate the new new year that day. and i'm feeling better about life, despite being sick (AGAIN). it's all good. I AM GOING TO BE POSITIVE-even if it makes me sick to play the susie sunshine.

so basically, i'm being happy, i'm working a lot, i'm making not much money, i've been asked to be on LA INK, i'm trying to make a lot of money, i need a computer, i want a puppy, i'm sick, i'm going to class, i'm submitting for auditions. we'll see how it all goes...

hope all is well with y'all.take care.
xoxox
*Ace*

Fuck you 2009

2009 can blow it out it's ass.
This year is full of shit already.
My mom called me in the middle of a script/bookstore and told me my brother lost his baby.
I feel like shit.
I can't call because I'm crying so hard and know they'll be crying which makes me cry harder about them losing this baby.
I feel like shit for being so shitty and concerned when I found out they were having a baby in the first place.
I don't care if everything happens for a reason, this reason blows a fat nut.
I hate 2009.
I hate crying so much this year.
I fucking hate it.
I...am so mad...and sad...and hurt...I just feel like total shit and don't know what to say or do or anything...
I am a horrible person.
I feel so awful for them, I love my brother and his gf so much. I was loving this little baby too. I had already started planning little things to buy and do and...
FUCK YOU 2009!
FUCK YOU!