11 pounds...

Losing this weight is much harder than I thought it would be...



I'm down 11 lbs. and 1.5 in. on my waist but I'm still hoping to lose more. We'll see if I can keep plugging along.

"I made a new house for him out of an old pasta box..."

So my back went out again.
Not awesome.
Last night.
I went on my ball to try to stretch and relax.
I used heat.
I woke up feeling worse.
I called the insurance company.
The recommended an 'osteopathic spinal specialist'.
Turned out it was a Chiropractor.
They made me feel worse.
I left crying.
I went to the ER.
I got a valium shot for the pain.
I need to see an internal medicine specialist.
It could be an aggravation of my first back strain from 4 years ago.
I might need physical therapy again if it's that.
If it's worse I might need surgery.
I'm just so annoyed this happened again.
I mean it flared up at Christmas but I am just not wanting to go through this shit again.
I'm so annoyed.
And I'm really pissed at that chiropractor for making me feel worse.
What a joke that office and those 'doctors' were.
I know some people love them but it made me feel like I wanted to die.
Jerks.
The ER gave me prescriptions for inflammation and spasms and pain.
I feel really loopy but better.
I'm just uncomfortable and icing my back and am annoyed.
I'm bed ridden for the weekend.
I have been ordered to take off work until Monday.
I hate being stuck in bed-I mean I love being in bed but not when I don't get the choice-like when I'm sick or injured like this.
Whatever.
I don't want to whine or be depressed about this but I'm just so mad.
At 24 I do not want to feel like I'm 94.
*Sigh*
Okay, I will be positive about this.
Maybe it will just be PT and I will restrengthen my back and core muscles.
I will not let this ruin my life or summer or work, etc.
*Deep Breath*
Okay, I feel better now that it's all off my chest.
ahhh.

Hope all is well with all y'all.
xoxox
*me*

YAY-10 pounds!

We're no strangers to love, you know the rules and so do I...

Losing weight baby!

So I'm in a play and rehearsing every night for that, working everyday to save mega money for all these plane tickets, a bridesmaid dress, a tattoo, a puppy, a computer, etc. I have been so busy and I am crazy tired but happy. Gotta love doing what you want. I just gotta keep trucking and saving my cheddar.

Oh and I am crazy obsessed with 80's music videos on youtube such as Rick Astley's from my title there-genius!

1 2 3 4 tell me that you love me more...

so it has been a rough year, but I'm picking myself up and dusting myself off and starting it over again on April 1st. DEAL WITH THAT 2009! YOU CAN'T HA!

no we're having a party to celebrate the new new year that day. and i'm feeling better about life, despite being sick (AGAIN). it's all good. I AM GOING TO BE POSITIVE-even if it makes me sick to play the susie sunshine.

so basically, i'm being happy, i'm working a lot, i'm making not much money, i've been asked to be on LA INK, i'm trying to make a lot of money, i need a computer, i want a puppy, i'm sick, i'm going to class, i'm submitting for auditions. we'll see how it all goes...

hope all is well with y'all.take care.
xoxox
*Ace*

Fuck you 2009

2009 can blow it out it's ass.
This year is full of shit already.
My mom called me in the middle of a script/bookstore and told me my brother lost his baby.
I feel like shit.
I can't call because I'm crying so hard and know they'll be crying which makes me cry harder about them losing this baby.
I feel like shit for being so shitty and concerned when I found out they were having a baby in the first place.
I don't care if everything happens for a reason, this reason blows a fat nut.
I hate 2009.
I hate crying so much this year.
I fucking hate it.
I...am so mad...and sad...and hurt...I just feel like total shit and don't know what to say or do or anything...
I am a horrible person.
I feel so awful for them, I love my brother and his gf so much. I was loving this little baby too. I had already started planning little things to buy and do and...
FUCK YOU 2009!
FUCK YOU!

Three Years and Lucent Dossier

So I am obsessed with this vaudevillian circus called Lucent Dossier Vaudevillian Cirque that appears at The Edison Downtown here in LA. I love the bar first off because it's the old Edison Light Company's building that they've left lots of machinery in and then added bars to it. They created chandeliers with old lightbulbs and tried to make them authentic to the 20s-30s and they are beautiful. It's just so old dark Hollywood amazing. Then on top of that Lucent Dossier performs there every Wednesday night and has the most amazing shows. They do performances throughout the eve and also have little "stands" throughout the bar. For example, the first time I went back in January there was a foot wash/rub station, an airbrush paint station, a boarding station where you got a ticket for the life path you were or are going on, it was all just really cool. This time there was the foot wash/rub station and a Dream Hatchery where you write your dreams for the birds to hatch for you and they give you little gifts to teach you lessons about your dreams. It was just so much fun, I really love going.

Also, it was Joe and my 3 year anniversary yesterday and we went to Mozza Pizzaria which was soooooo amazing. It's Mario Batali's restaurant out here and we had the best food. A tricolore salad with parmesan and pecorino with an anchovy paste dressing; a pizza with goat cheese, bacon, arugula, shallots, and garlic; a pizza with spicy pepperoni, chile peppers, and cheese; a butterscotch custard with cured salt, rosemary cookies, and whipped cream; and a lemon gelatto pie with a graham crust and candied lemon peel and whipped cream. We also had the very best wine a light pinot nero, SO delicious. We had the very best time. It was just what we needed to celebrate. :D